Workin for the Weekend

Okay, I have a few days to yap about on here...


Well Curtis texted me early on Valentines and told me that he has a surprise for me. So I was thinking about it allllll day long. I got home, and he gave me a teddy bear holding a heart shaped ring box. I was like omg! Inside was some candies. So that was cool. I opened my card, and read it, and started to get a little teary eyed. Then I look up, and he's standing there with another little box. I was like omg again! He opened it up, and it's a beautiful gold and diamond heart pendant. Soooooo pretty! So I got spoiled. All he got was a card. lol. He told me that we weren't going to spend much money, and he went and did this. Silly boy he is. We sat in my room, and had pizza and wings.

The reason why we were hiding out so much is because Misty, my roommate decided to have a huge blow out at me. She had asked me to drive with her to drop some stuff off to her brother. I didn't have a chance to get back at her, so when she got home, and I went to give the phone to her, she lost it. She totally flipped out on me, and went insane. She's never done that before. She got so mad that I didn't give her a text (I was retardedly busy at work) or a phone call. Then she freaked about dishes being left in the sink, and something about my bathroom. I freaked right out on her too. I am under so much stress at work, it's not even funny! But whatever. She threatened to talk to Joe (her husband) and give me 30 days to move out. I jumped in my truck, called my mom and cried my eyes out. Then Curtis showed up, and tried to talk to me. After I got off the phone with my mom, Joe called me to see what was going on. He reassured me that Misty was just having a bad time, and that no way he was going to kick me out. The reason for that I'm sure is because they would be losing out on a lot of money from me every month.

The day after, she hid in her room. Then I heard her bawling her eyes out, and crying hysterically. I thought someone in her family had died. I consoled her the best I could, and it turned out that someone did die... The dog. I said that I would give her my credit for a plane ticket. She said thanks, and apologised for everything. I haven't talked to her since... She's gone to Edmonton now (we cancelled the flight, and she drove instead). I did text her last night to see where she was and if she needed me to look after the cat. She said someone else was coming over to do it. Felt like such a slap in the face! Whatever. Nothing I can do about it now. That's the last time we've exchange any kind of communication.


I've been talking to my mom about the Weight Watchers website she has joined. It sounded so good that I joined yesterday! My starting weight is 173 pounds, and I'm hoping to lose at least 30. Who knows if that will happen. I went grocery shopping last night to get some healthy food for my journey to my goal weight. Mom is very supportive, giving me tips and stuff. I wanted to do some boxing on the Wii last night, but it has for some reason or another disappeared... Oh well. I can just do my Turbo Jam.

I've been so busy at work lately, and stressed out. I'm working all weekend, so that's a total downer. Oh well. Few more days, and I get to go to Edmonton for 4 days.

Curtis had mentioned to me about a potential job for a different survey company, doing the same work. And more money too. The shifts are 4 10 hour shifts, so it would be 4 on 4 off. I'm hoping that maybe something could be negotiated to have a 5 and 2... because if I work a 4 and 4, I won't have the same days off as Curtis... They said that I would get a company truck, so that helps out, but I don't get the 2 hours travel that I do with this company. I feel that I've reached as far as I can go here. They are looking for 2 admin people to cover me on the contract that I am currently working on, and then I get to move to do the invoicing for the other contracts, and do running. Drive back and forth to town when they need me to. Frankly I feel like it's a slap in the face, and that I'm being demoted to "bitch work". Sad... So... I'm hoping I can talk to the guy from the other company in the next couple days. Then I'll put in my resignation with this company, go on my trip to the Dominican to get refreshed, and start over.
Here's hoping that it'll turn out good!

Tuesday...

Annnnnnnnnd, good morning. I think...

So, it's Tuesday. I'm done all my morning work in record time, plus the extra thing that the project manager gave me to do.
Yippeee!

I guess I could enter in everyone's hours on the database. That would be good.

I'm kinda pissy today. Yesterday marks a full week since I've spoken to my mother... I don't know if she knows that I'm mad at her, or anything... What a piss off... You know, I thought she missed me and everything, but I guess not. Every time I talk to her, she tells me that she doesn't want to hear about my day, or that I talk too much. Well fuck. Thanks a lot Mom... I guess she just doesn't give a rip. At least that's how I feel.

I found out yesterday that I get to fly out to Prince George BC for a Regional Admin meeting. WOOT! They were going to have it on the 12th of March, until I mentioned that I would be in the Dominican. lol. So now they are planning for the 26th. I get to be there the 25th, 26th, 27th. Should be fun!

Feels like I didn't get enough sleep last night. It was hot in my room, and I kept tossing and turning. And it doesn't help that I have a puncture mark on my shoulder from getting my vaccines done for my trip. (man I can't wait)

I should get a coffee.... And eat something. I weighed myself yesterday at home... 170.5 lbs. Curtis weighed himself too. At the dr's it said 205. At my house it said 210. He believes the dr's scale. And so do i! That means I'm 165. I still feel like a whale though. I have to tone...

Maybe I'll go for an hour walk on the treadmill at home tonight. That couldn't hurt... Put on my headphones and boogie along. Should be good.

I have to get my eyebrows waxed soon. Ugh. They look horrible! I think the last time I got them done was in November. That was the last time I had a hair cut too. I want them nice looking so when I get my eyebrow pierced again, you can see it, and it'll look good. Yep... that's the plan.

Just Today

I haven't written in a blog for quite some time. I'm not even sure if I know what I want to write.

I guess I should start with last night. I had the most horrid dreams. My nephew was this long, lanky, froggy looking thing, and he was dying. I couldn't understand why he looked that way, or why no one would tell me what was going on. Sometimes I have days where I have just absolute insane dreams, where nothing makes sense, and I'm petrified. I dunno.

I just feel pretty alone lately... And kinda sheltered. Just yesterday I was told that I was being kinda bitchy. Well.. that happens sometimes... *sigh*

I miss Curtis. He's just been so great with me... 5 months we've been together now. We're going to the Dominican soon. I'm pretty excited but not as much as I could be. I haven't been working out in a while... I feel like I've put on a lot of weight, and that I'm not going to look as good in a bathing suit that I could... I know, kind of a weird thing to be worried about... Curtis loves me no matter what, but I want to make a good impression on his friends. I just wish that there was a quick fix.

Work is going alright.... Not great, not bad, just... alright.

And I haven't talked to my mom in almost a week... She pissed me right off the last time I spoke to her, so now I'm making it up to her to call me. I'm not sure if she knows that I'm upset with her...
Mothers just have this inante ability to make their children feel like shit, even though they didn't say or do anything at the time. It's hard to feel successful and happy when she thinks that you're fat, or lazy, or something. Sometimes I think she's jealous of me, and what I've done with my life. I dunno. I could be right... I could be way wrong.

I'm kind of in the market for getting some more ink done. I want to get something on my back to incorporate my 2 dragons that are on there already. I'm not sure what kind of theme or anything, but a friend of mine at work is willing to sketch something up one of these days when we aren't too terribly busy. I'm not sure if I want to cover my dragons, or to get them redone, or to just get something between them.

I should get Curtis to take pictures of me, to show all my tattoos. That would really rock.

Alright. Time to go and get some lunch. I feel like disappearing and maybe getting some sushi... But it's freezing outside and I haven't showered yet. Starting to sound like it's Kraft Dinner time. Woot!